Monday, April 06, 2009
Lostmissing is a public art project -- I’d love it if you’d participate.
And here's what lostmissing #26 says:
I hate that it was so easy for you to throw me away, so easy because we hardly have any overlapping friends, so easy because our schedules and our routes through the city barely cross. It didn’t used to be that way. First we existed around everyone and then later our relationship moved to a particular space away. I think I liked it that way. Maybe it even made us closer. Because then we could be around everyone else but still in that space, the imprint of your arm around my shoulder or a kiss on the neck or just the way we walked together, sat together, holding the moments between us a shelter.
I miss that reliability, something I came to depend on but I didn’t know how much because it didn’t feel like a dependency. I mean I knew I could rely on you. How do I go back and correct that, correct it in each individual cell in my body, unlearning the safety that left me here?