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- mattilda bernstein sycamore
- My first memoir, THE END OF SAN FRANCISCO, (City Lights 2013) is out now!!! *** My latest anthology, WHY ARE FAGGOTS SO AFRAID OF FAGGOTS?: Flaming Challenges to Masculinity, Objectification, and the Desire to Conform (AK Press 2012) *** My latest novel: SO MANY WAYS TO SLEEP BADLY (City Lights 2008) *** My other recent anthologies: the expanded second edition of THAT'S REVOLTING! Queer Strategies for Resisting Assimilation (Soft Skull 2008) *** NOBODY PASSES: Rejecting the Rules of Gender and Conformity (Seal Press 2007) *** My previous novel: PULLING TAFFY (Suspect Thoughts 2003) *** My previous anthologies: DANGEROUS FAMILIES: Queer Writing on Surviving (Haworth 2004) *** TRICKS AND TREATS: Sex Workers Write about Their Clients (Haworth 2000, Italian version Effepi Libri 2007)
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2 comments:
heartbreaking loveliness
Thank you, my dear.
Love --
mattilda
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