Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Santa Fe: Okay, here’s where I ask for information, yes information…

Am I completely crazy for thinking of moving to Santa Fe? I mean, I know I’m completely crazy, but is Santa Fe a good idea? Of course, I’ll have a better sense once I actually visit (in April, I think), but right now I’m researching -- yes, this is a research project and I want your ideas ideas ideas too, please share…

7 comments:

Cyd said...

Matilda, I grew up in NM for 9 years of my life and spent 2 of those in Santa Fe. I constantly miss New Mexico - I'm not sure if it was the clean air and lack of natural disasters that makes me wistful, but definitely something deep stuck to me - green chili, sunsets, pinon trees, sigh! Santa Fe itself is a weird town - kind of rad, it used to have this amazing, kind of scummy teen arts center but other than that is kind of a vaccumm of queer - that could be something you are even looking for though? I dunno, if you wanna ask me more about New Mexico my email is thunder.in.our.hearts@gmail.com

mattilda bernstein sycamore said...

Cyd, yay for information! Thank you thank you thank you -- and yes yes, I may very well write for more -- I think I'm going to visit in April...

Everywhere seems kind of like a vacuum of queer these days -- here I am in the so-called heart, right?

Love --
mattilda

EM said...

I've only been to Santa Fe once, and I was only there for one day. I have been to NM several times though. Here is my impression for what it's worth:

New Mexico is a gorgeous state in general. I won't even try to articulate the impact the NM desert had on me. It has been calling to me since the first time I saw it (that's the only way I can think of to describe it). I loved the sense of remoteness and the way I could disappear there for real if I wanted to. It like knowing it is there, b/c it feels like a sanctuary is waiting for me when the day comes that I'll need it. And I could go weeks or months w/o having to see other people if I wanted to...That is a HUGE plus in my book, but I am a misanthropic jerk.

As for Santa Fe, it was very pretty. From what I recall, it would be probably be difficult to live there w/o a car. I got the sense that you'd have access to good "alternative" health care. What else? Oh, I remember thinking it was strange how white Santa Fe was compared to the rest of the state. I mean, it is much more racially diverse than most places in the US, but it still felt like the white people decided to make it their safe haven or something.

It had an okay vibe for the most part. Although it felt very Dennis Kucinich and granola "downtown", which you may or may not find annoying.

Thumbs up for NM in general though. I hope you find a place that you like & that won't destroy your sinuses. A place where you can finally just be.

I once thought SF would be that place for me, but it always felt like I was on the outside looking in at the remnants of a dream. Sorta like I was a detective who showed up at a crime scene--I could tell something had happened there once, but there were only a few clues left for me to work with.

What are some other place you have considered as possibilities?

Hope you are feeling better.

And wow, allergic to serotonin? I didn't know that was possible. Maybe I have that allergy too. It would explain why I am such a moody queen all the time.

xoxoxoxo

Elián

mattilda bernstein sycamore said...

Elian, thanks so much for these thoughts -- it certainly sounds beautiful, so if nothing else I'll have an interesting trip when I investigate...

It does seem like a car place, and I can't drive because of the pain (and don't really want to anyway), so that will be something I'm focusing on -- whether it's possible to get around otherwise.

That's interesting that Santa Fe is so much whiter than the rest of the state -- makes sense, though, with the colonial art world and all of that.

Hmmm, that downtown sounds a bit scary, but who knows...

And I was wondering actually whether Santa Fe might be too dry for my sinuses, right? But I've never lived somewhere dry, so I think it's worth trying.

This is beautiful:

"I once thought SF would be that place for me, but it always felt like I was on the outside looking in at the remnants of a dream. Sorta like I was a detective who showed up at a crime scene--I could tell something had happened there once, but there were only a few clues left for me to work with."

I guess I've felt on the inside of that dream too, so it's heartbreaking in a different way, but I'm ready to get the hell out of here -- I can always move here a fourth time, right?

I'm not sure where else to think about moving yet -- if I was just moving somewhere because I liked the place, I would move to Montréal, but it's super-humid and polluted there (plus, all that insane heat inside because of the crazy winter, and that destroys my sinuses), so if I'm moving somewhere where the external environment might change my system, that's not the place. I guess I feel like I should try the Southwest, but all those cities are hideous sprawl and I can't with sprawl + I need somewhere with super-clean air and the resources for my daily life, so for now I'm investigating Santa Fe -- but I'm certainly open to ideas...

I did think of one of those Colorado towns (Boulder?), but too much of a college town might destroy me (I've never been there, either).

When I have energy, moving sounds exciting, but that's when I have energy...

Love --
mattilda

mattilda bernstein sycamore said...

Oh, and the serotonin allergy -- I think they must mean an allergy to the synthetic form in all those drugs, but who knows...

Love --
mattilda

james said...

A book I remember reading when I lived near Cimarron, New Mexico for six summers in the nineties is "Enchantment and Exploitation". A history of the clash of three cultures: the Native Americans, the Spanish, and then later the Americans. There are some chapters on the exploitation of the environment, such as the clearcutting of the Ponderosa Pine trees in the mountains when the Santa Fe railroad was built.

mattilda bernstein sycamore said...

James, thanks so much for the recommendation -- I was just thinking I should read some books about the area, and this sound like a good one to start with...

Love --
mattilda