Wednesday, October 13, 2010

As close as possible

Somehow I end up at the Nob Hill Theatre. I say somehow, because I don’t really have enough energy to get there, but then I’m there. Its noon -- what will the crowd be like? Soon enough I’m sucking someone’s dick, that crowd works. He wants to fuck me through the glory hole, and even though I haven’t gotten fucked in who knows how long, at least a year, I think it’s so funny for noon in this dark space when it’s so sunny outside, that I ask him if he has a condom. He doesn’t. I go back to sucking. Then he pulls away again, says he’s going to get a condom upstairs. Which means he’s going to buy one, I mean if he’s not really leaving, since they don’t provide free condoms in places like this, just signs for City Clinic.

This guy leaves and someone else take his place right away -- I just see business shirt and slacks and then his dick pushing through the hole, thick and hard already so you know I’m sucking again, this noon thing is working out. Then this guy leans down to whisper through the hole, somehow I didn’t think he was Asian before I mean I guess I wasn’t thinking about anything but his dick, and the blue cross stitch on his white shirt, the smell of detergent, very clean, but now I see his face and I guess that’s where race comes in, he wants to know if I want to go in another booth with him, sure, he leads me to the corner one that doesn’t border any of the others, we go inside, I get on my knees, he holds my head, I’m so hard and he comes down my throat I barely taste it and I love that too -- I love that he comes down my throat, I love that I barely taste it, and then I remember when I was walking in here I thought okay, the one thing I want is a hug, however strange that sounds, so then I kiss him on the neck, and hug him too but kind of diagonally because that’s the arrangement of our bodies and then I tell him I’ll wait until he zips up his pants before I open the door, see I’m so polite.

I go to the bathroom to wash up, and there’s the guy from earlier, washing up too but he looks embarrassed and I can’t tell what exactly he’s washing up from, I say hi but he doesn’t say anything, he leaves and I wash up. Then I wonder where he is, open a door to see what’s next door and it’s someone’s ass through the hole, he’s playing with someone else in the booth oh this is that guy’s ass, the one who wanted to fuck me, I get on my knees to see better and then he turns around and sticks his dick in my mouth, just like that. I’m sucking and then he pulls away and looks down and shows me the foil of a gold condom in his hand, earlier I asked for one that’s polyurethane but I can’t read the brand, I look over to the other guy who’s shy about sucking because he watches while I suck and when the guy pulls out and holds it over for him he just moans and maybe does some kind of navel kissing which is fine with me because I don’t need to share, the other guy’s kind of pasty and I imagine alcohol breath but remember it’s noon, maybe just lunch break, and then the other guy has the condom on his dick but he hasn’t said anything so I worry the pasty guy will get confused but then the guy with the condom says I want to fuck you and this is when I think the invitation is so funny and surreal that I better at least try, earlier actually I just asked him if he had a condom because I suspected he didn’t have one so then I could go back to sucking but now I actually want to see if it will work so I ask if he has lube he says no I say let me use some spit and he holds out his hand, no stick it in my mouth and he takes the condom off to hand it to me, no on your dick. He doesn’t seem to understand, I’m not sure why I mean I don’t think there’s a language barrier -- when he spoke earlier there was no accent, he is Latino but of course that shouldn’t make me assume anything so maybe actually he’s straight, certainly not used to using condoms and even gay guys who don’t use them know how, right? But anyway I suck for a moment and I taste lube, gross but it’s there so I stand up then turn around and start grinding against his dick, not quite hard enough, then not quite the right angle, then he’s trying to force it which never works for me but actually it does work with the wall between us because I have more control, I can feel it going into my asshole but not quite until wait it’s there a little bit and he’s pounding as hard as he can but still it doesn’t quite go in except there’s that rush of sensation all over my skin no in my skin no my body this is my body yes this is what’s hot about getting fucked and then he’s moaning, pulling back, come in the condom, hilarious, maybe this is a good way for me to get fucked actually, maybe I should try this more often I mean usually I’m too scared of the pain to go there but actually it kind of worked.

Then everyone’s gone except for the people who aren’t gone, just a few now but I’m sucking someone else’s dick except he keeps pulling away and actually I wasn’t sure I wanted him to come anyway, at first his dick tasted like plastic I had to look a few times to make sure there wasn’t a condom on it but no just the taste, maybe lube but anyway after he pulls away again I say thanks, walk around in circles for too long but not too too long, trying to think about whether I want to come before I leave, just because I haven’t come in so long and tomorrow I’m going out with someone who I think is extremely hot and what if we end up having sex, I mean we might just talk but if we end up having sex I’ll come too soon I mean unless I come now so then I go in the booth and start watching some porn, looking for the one that turns me on and then there’s someone in the booth next to me, jerking off, oh it’s the guy with the almost-plastic dick, I never know whether to mention race I mean usually I mention it when it comes up but not otherwise but then lately I’ve started to wonder if that means I’m erasing something but really I don’t know, in this case it doesn’t really come up I mean it does come up but not in a way that seems more notable than what he’s wearing or how old he is but the question is something I’ve been thinking about for a while and then I’m leaning back he’s leaning over to watch and I can feel that rush to my head which means I’m going to have to come, eyes closing, my hand under shirt to rub belly down to rub thighs and yes that sudden low moan and there it goes, one two three or is it four bursts up into the air, a great show, almost a puddle on the floor and someone rushes in right after I leave, the guy who looks like a camp counselor, maybe he’ll lick it up or at least bend down to get his nose as close as possible but before I wash up I need to study this one DVD case, the one that says Dildo Me Raw, what the hell does that mean? Maybe it’s some kind of covert trick to change the way barebacking porn is the thing or more importantly the way barebacking is the thing, which may or may not relate to barebacking porn, maybe I’ll watch it next time just to see although dildos don’t turn me on except during the rare moments when I’m using one on myself, but then it’s not about the looking it’s the feeling and when I walk outside I almost can’t believe it’s full-on bright daylight, 1 pm and all this already happened.

4 comments:

Debbie Ann said...

that was great, thank you so much.

mattilda bernstein sycamore said...

Thank you, Debbie Ann!!!

Love --
mattilda

Campbell said...

Raw! Excellent. :-)

mattilda bernstein sycamore said...

Thank you, Campbell :)

Love --
mattilda