Saturday, October 02, 2010

Look, you can watch my goodbye-to-San-Francisco reading!!! (Thanks to the gorgeous work of Mark McBeth!)


Here's the reading...



And the Q&A...

100928 Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore Part 1 and Part 2 from In Studio SF on Vimeo.

12 comments:

thissouthernfaggot said...

Oh yes, I am so excited about watching this!

Also, the person who did the intro (Jen?) made me remember how much I love it when people are such good public speakers, that they can interject "right" into their speaking, so that it neither sounds pushy or too... questioning. I have always been infatuated (obsessed?) with people who can do this well.

I am only a few minutes into the video, but Mattilda, this outfit! It's wonderful! I feel like maybe it is calling for a barrette, however. Maybe a couple.

mattilda bernstein sycamore said...

My dear, I was certainly thinking about you when they made sure to get the reading videotaped, and I'm so glad I did -- I even got to watch my Q&A, and realize that all the things I was getting neurotic about the next day -- well, actually there was no need to get neurotic at all...

And yes, Jen is brilliant -- you can look her up at writingourselveshole.org

And of course I'm glad you like the outfit -- I think that bright pink turns out particularly well in the camera's eye, it seems...

As for barrettes, for while I was obsessed with finding just the right day-glo plastic ones, but the truth is that they hurt my hands to put on and then they just end up making my hair messier...

Love love love --
mattilda

thissouthernfaggot said...

I just finished the two videos. I was especially interested to see them, because I wanted to be able to both see and hear how you were able to say goodbye to this place, where you have lived for so long and have so many memories (good and bad. Let's not forget about the bad ones!).

This is especially important to me, as I am constantly thinking about this place I call home, more specifically, what it is offering to me vs. what I am getting out of it, if anything at all.

Or, yet even more specifically... do I know what I want to get out of a place that I am living? Anything? Something? I don't know!

Anyway, thank you for the videos and it is always a pleasure to hear and see you speak.

My hair always finds a way to eat barrettes. I mean, not literally (unfortunately!), but after just a hour I always find them under lots of other hair, when they are supposed to be on top, holding things together :/

chamblee54 said...

This has been a fun morning. I am listening to you read, while photoshopping pictures from a cemetery in North Georgia.

mattilda bernstein sycamore said...

Thissouthernfaggot, yes yes all these important things to think about home and hope and hopelessness and home again and what that is and what we want and where we're going, I mean I'm certainly thinking about all these things and now they are about to change and I'm excited, at least when I have energy...

And always exciting to hear your thoughts!

And barrettes, I did find these cute ones with bows back in Chicago, but really in the wind, in the wind they don't seem so cute, or me, so maybe just to put on when I'm inside :)

And chamblee, that does sound like a fun morning!

Love --
mattilda

Hilary Goldberg said...

I'm so glad this was recorded. Sorry to have missed being there and grateful for this second chance. I really enjoyed your reading and am also a fan of your outfit.

Love, hil

Campbell said...

aw Mattilda, you are so cute and you look great in pink! Your reading was fabulous! You're such a great speaker! I'm so happy I got to see it.

mattilda bernstein sycamore said...

Hil, so great to hear from you -- and I'm glad that you at least got to see the reading (and my outfit) from the distance...

Campbell, thank you so much -- I'm so happy you got to see it! And thanks for the compliments...

Love--
mattilda

queerartist said...

Hi Mattilda

Wonderful reading. So glad that there is the video of it so folks like me far away can see and hear it. You make me proud to be queer and a long time fighter for many of the same things you speak of.

Oh yes the possibilities closing down all around. So sad. I remember when an apt. on the lower east side of nyc could be had for 35.00 a month. We could make that in a few days panhandling or selling our butts in t square.

I really feel for the young who want to be free. Its expensive to be free and move to a city. So much clean now everywhere.

You look and sound beautiful in the reading. All our best in Santa Fe, I just hope it is big enough and not too artsy.

Love and kisses and a big sweet hug

Richard

mattilda bernstein sycamore said...

Richard, I'm so glad you got to see the reading too, or at least the reading on video :)

We'll see what happens in Santa Fe, thanks for hoping for the best, my dear, and let's bring $35 apartments back, okay? One of these days -- or, maybe not -- but we can bring back the dreams, or bring on the dreams, since the dreams in our past were not as dreamy as we wanted -- at least I can say that for me, that past was terrible, I mean amazing too in moments but frightening and desperate and hopefully I'll get somewhere else...

Love --
mattilda

Emily said...

hey mattilda - it's been a million years and I just thought of looking at yr blog and now I'm watching these videos and getting teary-eyed. so great to have a chance to experience that event from all the way in nyc. sending you love, killer

mattilda bernstein sycamore said...

Killer, it's so great to hear from you, and I'm so glad you're watching the videos (and, for the tears in your eyes!) -- call me sometime soon so we can catch up!

Love --
mattilda