One problem with chronic health problems is that they are always a problem. Even when they are not directly a problem. For example, you’re sitting at a reading or a performance or whatever, and wondering how much this is going to hurt afterwards. Or, even when waking up in the morning filled with ideas crossing into and interacting with one another, and then ideas about ideas, so many thoughts coming together and you want to write it all down, but then by the time you sit down to write it all down, it’s gone. Or, not gone, but you can’t access it. Maybe one day it won’t seem delusional every time I think I have energy. I mean afterwards, sitting here and trying to remember.